My love was Disappeared

I ask god to add one day for me to live every morning I woke up,

And I will not going to tire asking god for my life to add,

Until I’ll reach the day,

The Day to see him again and come to my worthless life,

 To give me his love for the rest of our lives.

If that day will come,

I will never be disappear again,

I’m going to give my love for him till my life will end.

 

Playback to the year 2008,

We’re in a high school and he is my secret love of my life,

Remember the day, the Day first I met him,

He black my way and say Hi! hi miss,  He lean his hand around me to shake.

Who’s the hell are you? Do I know you? I’ve sarcastically ask him

Ohh!  jay is my name  and you? He replied,

so! go to hell! the words  came from my mouth, but in my deepest  heart saying, yes! Finally I met you.

 

The day come and go for the both of us.

When one morning came he appeared in my sight,

He smile at me and say, you’re the selfish person I had never met,

But even though you’re my light in my darkest day, you’re my hope in my worthless life.

Please be mine and always be mine, can you?

what..? why should I ? I had replied.

 

The next thing I know I’m sitting on the darkness place.

Crying,

Zeint? are you there? A whispered voice nearby,

I’ve turned my head up, and see him standing in front of me.

Can’t sleep?  he has ask.

Yeah! and he sat beside me and look  to the stars and wish.

 

What did you wish for?  I ask him. He took my hand in his,

He holds it so tight.

I did 3 wishes, the Sun for my day,

The moon for my night and you for the rest my life.

Well, that was then, 8 years ago.

 

I was in my office,

 Patients inter and say good morning..!

With a smile in his face, happiness, felt me I’m in a heaven had bring.

oh! Thanks god, surprised!! It’s him, Jay!  He’s back.

But much to my surprised the lady next to him,

I lower down my sight into her, oh! Hell she is conceive.

So he is….?

 

The twilight is about to disappeared and my heart started to cease beating,

Brooked into a pieces when I remembered the last conversation with him.

Hi! Meet my wife Ann,

Ann she was my high school friend,

 And then begins to wave goodbye,

And I knew I will never see him again.

Everything he had told me echoed both in my head and in my heart,

Learn to love and to be love.

 

When I realized, I’m  about  to lose my mind and waste my life,

I got up from bed and pray to god.

Hoping, and again asking for more days for me to live,

Until I’ll reach the day he totally disappeared in my mind and in my heart.

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