Always Mine

I had Always wanted you to be mine,

Had dreamt of times when we would be together,

And things would still be fine.

 

Now I remember ,

In this cold December

That you had moved on,

And that I have always stayed behind

 

Seeing you now,

Seeing someone else

I wonder whether you were ever there

With me,

With those thoughts,

Where I have always remained.

 

I had Always wanted you to be mine,

Had dreamt of times when we would be together,

And things would still be fine.

 

I can’t blame you,

Neither can I ask you

Of what we were

Of what we are,

What you thought of me,

And what was your point of view.

 

Are you the same person

That once I knew

Or have you turned into

Someone completely new?

 

Selfishly I desire,

For you to once know me,

To know what I felt

To know who I  was.

 

 

I had Always wanted you to be mine,

Had dreamt of times when we would be together,

And things would still be fine.

 

You were in a hurry,

You had things to do.

I was a slow walker,

Like the one who enjoys the view.

To you I was not right,

With you I would always fight

So many years later

You still are unknown of my plight.

 

 

I had Always wanted you to be mine,

Had dreamt of times when we would be together,

And things would still be fine.

 

 

“You go ahead”, that was all I could say,

With hands behind my back,

I moved a step away,

Hoping that in that moment

You will choose the right way

 

Since that gloomy day

Hiding alone I would always pray,

For you to not go,

For you to once know

To know what I felt

To know who I  was.

To know about the pain,

And to know its cause,

To know that my life,

Is still in a pause.

 

 

I had Always wanted you to be mine,

Had dreamt of times when we would be together,

And things would still be fine.