My Suicide Note

So many days I cried bitterly .

I stretched my hands to you. You didn’t hug.

I waited you will come. You didn’t come.

My eyes grew weak seeing the roads you may come.

I was your orphan.

But you will take me now!

 

Some days landlady gave me no food.

I wished you see my plight. You didn’t see.

I thought you will bring me good food. You didn’t bring.

My stomach shrank I can’t could not find it any more.

I was starving to death.

But you will feed me now.

 

My cloths are rags torn and already used.

I imagined you stitched new ones. You didn’t stitch.

I hoped you covered me with a blanket. You didn’t do.

My skin is pale and dull. I can feel it no more.

I felt dead cold. Its winter time.

But you will hug me now.

 

There are so many like me.

I prayed you scoop me up from here. You didn’t hear.

I cried you to kill me instead. You didn’t kill.

My heart has stopped. No reason to beat.

I felt so lonely these days.

But you will play with me now.

 

The place stinks as hell.

I dreamt you make me clean. You didn’t clean.

I asked you to listen my fate. You didn’t listen.

Got used to this smell. Where else to go?

I felt so dirty.

But you will bathe me now.

 

The nights are so dark and gloomy.

I murmured to you “Be with me”. You didn’t bother.

I told you “I am frightened. Help”. You didn’t help.

Nightmares and bad dreams pondered me. Ghosts laughed at me.

I could not sleep.

But you will sing for me now.

 

Too much I waited. Too much I suffered.

This is all I can do. I need you.

I am coming up to meet you. I know you are there.

But you will hear me now

Right ,Mom?

– Your Tom.
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